A great read ... & it just started

Have you ever read books by Coelho? I read his 1st book (quite belatedly) but after that, I always kept reading his other works. This man is a genius when it comes to human emotions ... it's quite amazing that he can immerse himself into a character with so much emotion, sharing with us their journey with effortless appeal ... and this one which I want to share with you a indeed a masterpeice which I relate to ... very much.

So, here the story of a girl (who cried the river & drowned the whole world???? ok ok .. nonsensical) ... who after half a lifetime, met again with a childhood friend who took her for a journey of discovery & spirituality ... and ultimately, a love unearthed through this path. Still reading it but at a slow pace, to savour the art of Coelho's words ...

"By the River Piedra, I sat down & wept" ... I endorse :)

Bangalore ... best city in India?

I dread late flights ... and my flight to Bangalore on Sunday meant I arrived there at 1:30 am Malaysian time. By the time I got to the hotel, I was really dazed since I am the boy who needs his sleep. It didn't help that I had someone to bunk in with me for the entire stay. and he's a smoker .... sigh, he somked in the toilet, but even that, I had to choke in the next morning, so I sternly said .. no smoking in the room if he wants to bunk in with me.

Now, the morning was quite nice .... noticed the night before washed the place in wetness and in the nice cool highland air, the city was green ... unlike grimy Mumbai .... for a start, I was in love with Bangalore.

Now, the conference was like any others ... the usual problems ... the usual praises ... but what was different was that the conference was my brinachild, so the accolades were taken closer to my heart ... but the praises were good; I was on to something ... least for the conference. Now, what's new & exciting was that this conference had a cocktail reception ... and I enjoyed it ... though I busted my mind with a quick shot of vodka lime ... but then the stroll along the MG (Mahatma Gandhi) Road was great ... it's the shopping street for the city, so took a look around ... it was also my 1st time going really shopping in India (ironically the last time too, least for this year). But this is what I think is good to buy in India ...

> hand stitched shoes ... quite nice ... bought my sister a pair ...
> sandal wood souvenirs (a little pricey but still cheaper than KL)
> men's clothing (I bought 1 long sleeved shirt ... each for RM18 ... in silk ... )
> Indian sweets ... yummy :)
> Indian accessories .... we have the same inM'sia but the varieties here are more and slightly cheaper than the ones I saw in Little India

Didn't see much of touristic places since I wanted to cover my shopping.

The wait for my flight was horrendous .... one of my speakers wanted to take me out, instead, he kept me in his office, waiting until quite late, without dinner and panic because by the check-in time, he still kept me in office ... was very afraid I will miss the flight. Really crazy & the darkest point of my trip .... the only time I lost my temper due to hungriness, panic and helplessness. Thank goodness everything went well once I reached the airport.

But never again, I will go to dinner with people before the flight ... sigh

The trip energized me ... in the head but my tiredness crept on me by the time I finished off today. Came home, ate, then crashed at 7:30pm until now ... 11:30pm ... going back to sleep soon. So goodnight world ... see u tomorrow

Just another Saturday ...

Today's quite an aloof day.

Just like any typical Saturday ... wake up after a Friday night out, then wash car ... eat, chill out, then spend the rest of the day reading at MPH, with my usual does of Asterix, Star Wars comics, lifestyle-quality books ... then a chill out drive home.

I just love days like these ... relaxing & stretching my mind. But the eye holds the eve of the storm as they all say, & right as it is since tomorrow night's another spot of flying.

Need to fly off to Bangalore, for my last trip to India (at least for the rest of 2005) ... so I made plans to make this a real blast, both in the conference & out of it. This conference has so many media partners & endorsers, which is far beyond what I have done so far. And I am looking forward to the cocktail party, which is also something I did not have before so far ...

And I do want to ensure I make some shopping, least for things which I want, clothes, & ultimately, souvenirs for friends.

So, let me forget work & enjoy the life on the jetplane :) Just cannot help thinking about this.

Keep going ...

From astrology, the horse character is one who loves deeply, gets hurt a lot, but probably recovers quickly from unsuccessful relationships.Horses just run on ...

As a Leo, it's quite easy to love people (& hate them) .. it's kind of extreme. I have liked many people, confessed my feelings & I have never successfully wooed someone. And the lion's ego is hurt for a while now.

My last so-called relationship did not turn out so well ... did not feel like pursuing further when I started realizing that it's going to stay one-sided for a long time, since there's no compromise & no mutual feeling. Looking back, we were quite different & life ideals were contrasting especially about religion. Amazing that I fell for her, but probably the best option of my life at that moment.

Also, all the people I ever liked, never fitted into my horoscope match from both Chinese & western astrology, it's usually only from one angle.

If you ever heard me lament about my relationships, it's usually about being either in the wrong place, time, circumstance or just the person. In any case, my most recent interest will once again be in the wrong place, but more than that, would require me to test my principles should I proceed.

She's great, I love her ideals (it's just too similar & we both agree), her sarcastic humour tickles my thoughts, her approach to life & problems, and so much more. This is the thing about love, isn't it? We can fail, but I think each time I fail, the next one's better. And no doubt she's great.

And if it were to get better, both our horoscopes from western & chinese fit perfectly. The thing I fear (& at the same time look forward to), is when she will ask me about my thoughts for her.

Working with her, it's does not take a genius to figure out that she will do that to find out what she wants. And since I am not so good at hiding my feelings when confronted, I just might.

But since we work together, it's not easy you know. A relationship in work, can change many things, how people perceive it, regardless the relationship works out in the 1st place. It will take a lot of effort, open thinking and neutrality from both people & their surrounding people to make it work well.

I like her, a lot. In the 2nd day I knw her, she mentioned casually that I am a great guy, but I am not her type. But looking at changes & comments, it can change. It just might.

Until then, just keep working on it Jay! A try does not equal success but no tries is already failed.

I am bacccckkkk!!!!!

After 2 agonizing months without broadband at home, I finally got back online ... so today's a magical moment where I can get back into my lifestyle of information ....

will be writing a lot more :)

ironic ... life is ...

well ... I am back after a long break ... thanks to my 'disconnected' stage from internet at home for the past 2 months ... which is still unresolved still, but i found a way to just dig in today & I could not resist because there is so much on my mind ...

work... irony #1 ... for a longest time i was in love with my work ... everything was going my way, good results, quick promotion ... new challenge ...

3 months down the line, I don't feel the 'love' anymore ... just too bogged by problems, the politics in company got uglier ... my mentor & guru has left the company by his will (though under protracted means).

the last 3 weeks were of utter dismay & low motivation, though this weekend has been a good but tiring break ... feeling a little refreshed now

moving on ... irony #2 ... my ever agonizing love saga ...

u might think i am crazy, moving on so fast after each of my affairs, but I did not think my next match would come soon ...

anyway, people from the year of horse is supposed to go along well with people from the years of tiger & dog. And it's quite true, as I have been on quite good terms with my friends who are at this moment. So, what happened, was that one walked into my life quite recently, but with a twist & catch.

Until this moment, we have clicked around nicely, in fact quite natural & complimentary ... in fact, it's almost like I known her all my life ... understanding my character, thoughts & probably rationale.

For all the fanfare however, she has mentioned before that I am not her type ... although she has stated quite some time that we have similar characteristics, sends me messages & mails from time to time, worried about me especially when I am down lately.

interesting, but confusing. I like her but guess will not dwell further. Just focus on work. After all, office relationship in my company can be quite a toxic experience, since people are quite nosy, political & speculative

write another time, hopefully soon.

night