Enjoying annual leave

This break is doing me some good ... because I seriously cannot remember the last time I hung out at a shopping mall, spending time browsing through the shops and reading in a mega bookstore.

But yesterday, I finally did it ... and what a great feel it was ... I just kept walking & walking & walking ... also bought myself some new clothes (totally new colours) to add to my wardrobe.

Shopping for myself was the easy part. Shopping for a present is definitely a task, a heavy assignment ... especially when you have someone you wish to impress. Well ... no hurry, I still have the weekend to settle that, so let me take a few more advice before splashing in.

Dinner with my good friend Jarod was good ... to catch up ... see how is he going, give some advice on his career path ... also enjoy seeing him receive calls from ladies (he's a ladies guy as I always said) and seeing what he intimates with them ...

So the day ended with me going home (along with my fresh supply of DVDs from JB) and watching movies until early morning ...

Today's going to be slow ... just watch DVD since it's a state holiday & most people are out, so no point going out ... probably tomorrow ...

Taking my time off work & study is quite cool ... except that I think I have some assignments coming up ... maybe later this evening ...

If I only knew ...

In my past 10 years ... I do believe that I spent a big part of it trying to find the elusive 'someone' in my life.

It holds true that when we are not looking for it, it will come looking for you ... and when you are looking for it, it just shies away. For my past 18 months, I guess most of the time were just flipping from one fancy to another ... everytime passing one for the easier excuses I could find ... but ultimately because I was not willing to compromise my criteria. Let me not blame fate because from movies, we know that fate has it's way to twist a sweet ending.

Great discoveries happen in the most unexpected manner & situations. But my friends will attribute the situation as "men's insensitivity to signals" ...

So what's the story? Oh, the usual dinner conversation of ... "when are you going get into a serious relationship?"

"Well, I don't know ... not anywhere in my radar now ..."

"Any good friends you have in mind?"

"Maybe ... a few ... three or four ... "

"Anyone interested in you?"

"Errr ... how would I even know?"

"Well ... people who are concerned about you ... people you spend a considerable time with ... "

"I got a few"

"Then YOU have to decide ... the problem's on you"

Fair enough. I gladly acknowledge that because I am always in 2 heads over this ... and have a conservative thinking & ideal criteria. Anyway ...

" How do you know these?" ... since yours truly plays the listener role in this circle ...

"Well ... we just know ... "

Most modern & outgoing women use 'marketing agents' to do some 'scouting' and I guessed this was the case & whom their 'client' was ... but being myself ... I am indecisive ... so here i go thinking ... "Just another fling to be washed down the Jayteoh river of flings ...

Or so I thought?

That night, I woke up for a long time & in my mind was just her ... something I have not felt in a long time. And since then, I have been waking up in the middle of the night ...

Coincidence? winds of change?

The answer ... I seek.

Appraisal next week

It's been sometime since I had time for blogs, so I am not sure if I will start again ... I stopped writing for more than 6 months already.

Anyway, I am having an appraisal next week and it's an interesting one (probably advantageous but tricky), so I am waiting to see how it turns out.

Going for a "you show me your thoughts before I share mine" approach ... to keep my aces on my sleeve.

See if I manage to write anytime soon ...