Things I don't usually write on a blog ...

(An interesting read which I got from somewhere, don't you think the title's interesting? How can a person write something that should not be expressed? Boggles my mind)

The blog’s not the escape hole for everything. I realized this a long time ago, but it took me so long to say this out.

Although this was my trapdoor out of my world into my innermost mind … it’s not convenient to write all because there are some people who read it … some whom I already know are reading it and even more, those unseen … unidentified …

Some things I’ve not have the chance to blog out …

How much I hated my previous job … the place, the culture & the management were so out of sync with my style … I felt suffocated & trapped … in a world which I blindly accepted into last year without knowing the true colours of that world.

How complicated my feelings for someone can be … I just kept trying to figure out the logic, trying to interpret clues/rejections … but by keeping it all inside, by jumping to conclusions myself, by not seeking the real truth … I ended up torturing myself with all the anticipation, deductions, disappointments, everything’s simmering inside into an amalgam of … well, thrash! So much for being Mr. Straightforward … hah!

So why am I writing all this now? Probably felt no time's a better time than now ...

Work. It ended a week ago. Time to move on. And most of all, I am not bitter about it all, (honestly) because I’m glad to finally move on. I was not right for the job, for the company & the boss … and it’s nicely a mutual feel both ways. It’s better to move on. They should take more time to find the right person to do the job instead of a shotgun hiring like they did with me last time. As the company is ‘unique’, they need to find characteristics that can fit into the requirements of the management style. Otherwise, they may just run into another brick wall if they are not careful, a harder one if that person is not as tolerant as me. But tolerance has it’s limit & ah, enough is enough. And most of all, enough said. Glad to close this chapter here.

(to be continued)