Dear myself,
Wednesday, 14th Dec 2005
It’s been days since I last wrote in my blog. In fact, none at all since my self declared ultimate freedom on Sunday … after my HRM paper; ah, the bliss of freedom.
Quite a few things happened, though nothing very groundbreaking.
One, my life has been a constant flutter of social activities, from lunches, dinners & late mornings (no more getting up at 0530 hours) …
Two, I acquired 16 DVDs at a good price of $6.50 each and at DVD quality too in KL … been quite sometime since I bought that many (more prevalent during my socialistic lifestyle in Singapore). Now, it’s my vengeance on DVDs as I devoured 8 so far and with half more to go … I am a movie freak after all.
Three … thinking of my holiday, next week I will be going off for a road trip and with some loose ends to cover up this week, including settling my pay, new place, etc.
Now, coming on to my thoughts, besides burning my time away, I also spent some time to reflect upon my past 18 months in Marcus Evans and thought a lot about what I have done, the good, the bad & the ugly … it was good to look back and think of the angles I have learnt during those times. Some were very good innovation & change, some were bad moves and the rest are actions with fruits still in bearing, just that I will not be there to reap the harvest. But at the least, learnt how to do it and guess that was a good lesson to pack along.
Bulldozing forward
Also thought much about where I am now at this point of my life, what I have achieved, where I am heading & the people in my life.
At 27 years old, ad for the pay I am receiving, I won’t say that I am really somewhere; it’s just about the same as the rest of my peers who graduated the same time as me. But if looking at me starting my career in less than 3 years compared to theirs of 5, I guess it’s not too bad and on the mend to chase them. In fact, optimistically, looking to overtake them by the end of this year & that’s me I guess, the ever competitive & ambitious bloke.
Now
2 years ago, I planned my vision for life and a 5 years plan. At this moment, I can say that my plan is in sight and yet, also a lot of opportunities have opened through the space of 2 years. But more importantly, it is personal vision and plans that benchmarks you from others because it is about waking up each day, handling every down and pushing myself forward … driven by the fact the vision I implanted within.
A purpose for my existence
A lot of people I know are lost, de-motivated & disillusioned because life has become too process-like, too mechanical, routine and lack of a spark. You’ll know because the people I used to know as optimistic, brilliant and innovative have hit a drought because the working world is after all, too brutal, too hard, dry and realistic, that it stiffens ideas, dreams and murders the child in us. I know because I speak to people like this each day and they are all stuck in Maslow’s middle rungs of needs.
A shared journey
How does this affect people in my life? Every way & everything possible I can do, I want to bring them along, reach for something more and break away from the monotony in the order of society. They do not need to toil like the rest. They can all be empowered, no, they can empower themselves with personal visions, to see life and purpose in a bigger picture, and perhaps think again with the childlike innocence and dream dreams of larger individual purpose … then reach out.
At this moment, I do not sound like the Jason you hear in work (a lot more of the ‘crappy’ stuff you heard from me during AIESEC days), but I know myself deep down inside and my purpose.
Let me reach my 5 year goals so that I have the financial independence to chase my dreams.
With humble regards,
Jay
It’s been days since I last wrote in my blog. In fact, none at all since my self declared ultimate freedom on Sunday … after my HRM paper; ah, the bliss of freedom.
Quite a few things happened, though nothing very groundbreaking.
One, my life has been a constant flutter of social activities, from lunches, dinners & late mornings (no more getting up at 0530 hours) …
Two, I acquired 16 DVDs at a good price of $6.50 each and at DVD quality too in KL … been quite sometime since I bought that many (more prevalent during my socialistic lifestyle in Singapore). Now, it’s my vengeance on DVDs as I devoured 8 so far and with half more to go … I am a movie freak after all.
Three … thinking of my holiday, next week I will be going off for a road trip and with some loose ends to cover up this week, including settling my pay, new place, etc.
Now, coming on to my thoughts, besides burning my time away, I also spent some time to reflect upon my past 18 months in Marcus Evans and thought a lot about what I have done, the good, the bad & the ugly … it was good to look back and think of the angles I have learnt during those times. Some were very good innovation & change, some were bad moves and the rest are actions with fruits still in bearing, just that I will not be there to reap the harvest. But at the least, learnt how to do it and guess that was a good lesson to pack along.
Bulldozing forward
Also thought much about where I am now at this point of my life, what I have achieved, where I am heading & the people in my life.
At 27 years old, ad for the pay I am receiving, I won’t say that I am really somewhere; it’s just about the same as the rest of my peers who graduated the same time as me. But if looking at me starting my career in less than 3 years compared to theirs of 5, I guess it’s not too bad and on the mend to chase them. In fact, optimistically, looking to overtake them by the end of this year & that’s me I guess, the ever competitive & ambitious bloke.
Now
2 years ago, I planned my vision for life and a 5 years plan. At this moment, I can say that my plan is in sight and yet, also a lot of opportunities have opened through the space of 2 years. But more importantly, it is personal vision and plans that benchmarks you from others because it is about waking up each day, handling every down and pushing myself forward … driven by the fact the vision I implanted within.
A purpose for my existence
A lot of people I know are lost, de-motivated & disillusioned because life has become too process-like, too mechanical, routine and lack of a spark. You’ll know because the people I used to know as optimistic, brilliant and innovative have hit a drought because the working world is after all, too brutal, too hard, dry and realistic, that it stiffens ideas, dreams and murders the child in us. I know because I speak to people like this each day and they are all stuck in Maslow’s middle rungs of needs.
A shared journey
How does this affect people in my life? Every way & everything possible I can do, I want to bring them along, reach for something more and break away from the monotony in the order of society. They do not need to toil like the rest. They can all be empowered, no, they can empower themselves with personal visions, to see life and purpose in a bigger picture, and perhaps think again with the childlike innocence and dream dreams of larger individual purpose … then reach out.
At this moment, I do not sound like the Jason you hear in work (a lot more of the ‘crappy’ stuff you heard from me during AIESEC days), but I know myself deep down inside and my purpose.
Let me reach my 5 year goals so that I have the financial independence to chase my dreams.
With humble regards,
Jay
posted by Jay @ 14.12.05
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