Baby snowdrops

3rd December 2005 - Do you remember your first encounter of snow? I remember mine in Romania when I got my 1st snowdrops … it was a joyous occasion for me, but sadly, as they fell, they melted just when they reached the ground. Guess the early ones never survive because the earth was not the right time.

Anyway, my declaration several weeks ago that love is over for me this year is fast becoming a distant memory & a challenge to fulfill. How so? Am I wrong again? Sigh.

I have always said that my most commanding feature of myself would be my body language & my eye contact. Someone, whom I have seen for a while but yet to know, suddenly crossed into my life recently. In office, I have always stolen & (sometimes) exchanged glances with some of the great looking ladies, and some are ice queens & some are reciprocal smiles & hellos. She’s someone quite good looking and it’s hard to miss her out, so one day, through a mutual friend, I was awkwardly placed with her over a meal.

For people who know me, you’ll shockingly find me dumbfounded, and lost for words because I was so struck by this occasion. Her smile, so sweet & captivating, and a fool like me just clueless. Absolutely brilliant. It didn’t turn out to be a massacre but not a fireworks gala either. Right, maybe it was not a right match.

Chance placed it another way that I met her during a drink and another and another … even so, I thought that chances could have been so, and did not think further about it. Until recently, a breakthrough in communication, somehow things have become warmer. Things definitely would not start somewhere if everything hinges on me because I am not good to make a move on someone.

And I am about to testify that it’s true you cannot judge a person’s demeanor with the hidden intention. Fate has it that I bumped into her again somewhere, yet, the initial reaction was chilly, so I thought it’s better to divert my attention elsewhere. Never thought that during the departure was a space for us to chat & the correspondence was taken forward from then. It’s great to know her better and fun to know the early impressions (and she’s absolutely right on her observations about me) … for sure that we both were not oblivious to the other all this time.

Funnily the office is small, but people are divided by a chasm until someone bridges it. Anyway, I am clueless about where this is all heading.

Again, I hope I am not misleading myself about anything, and hope I will not overanalyze things as usual. Take each day at a time to discover more & figure things out, about myself, how things will evolve …

Just be sincere & be true.

Is this an early snowdrop? Or the start of the white winter? Only heaven knows and time will tell.