At times like these ...

The last time I left Malaysia for a long period, it was not just a journey I embarked in search of myself, but also a step of breaking away from a blossoming friendship. While the relationship did survive the distance and a total time away of 3 years, it did not survive in my return and ended in tears. That’s my cover story some 10 months ago. Point is, since then, I have been totally obsessed with my career.

I know I am no longer the same naïve Jason people knew years ago, for sure less idealistic, more practical and more materialistic?

Have I forgotten the warm feeling of fighting for something which the outcome is unclear?

Have I lost the romanticism of bursting away with my feelings in the name of passion and love?

Am I so caught up in my pursuit for power, fame & richness?

Has reality in me turned stone cold?

At times like this take out the nice notes & e-mails that people wrote to me back from my AIESEC days, the heart warming notes asking me to reach out, telling me I am the best when I did not believe in myself, and many more which watered the seeds of greatness in me. I am reminded now that what I do now has a meaning, has a sacrificed value and with patience, I shall someday gain the balance in life which I desire. Until then, I must persevere and seek out my soul mate who balances out my other half in life. The paper chase must continue …

~ Let not the detractors pull you down the bucket of crabs, lest the way society is … after all, a bucket of crabs who pull down others who try to escape from the bucket ~