Contrasting fortunes within a week ...
All's well, ends well ...
To be honest, this week has ended in the most unexpected twists, turns and pressure, which when I look back, was quite an amazing one in fact.
Things started by clearing up my current love chase, which ended with a straight up answer of that I am not the right guy and there must have been some misunderstanding about feelings. Ah, I am thankful things are cleared up; I feel really free at this moment, not chained to an unknown & uncontrollable force (sometimes disguised as love but usually deceived as misunderstanding). Think I am more mature in facing this nowadays ... my turnarounds have been swift over the past years ... and the trick is always to turn disappointed energy towards new possibilities instead of wallowing in the pits of emotion, sadness, self-pity & over-indulgence. So, anyway ... I celebrated my 'freedom' over a rocked up car ride wracked with loud-thumping music ... just shouting my lungs out :) And treating myself to a DVD movie over the evening. Sweet.
Work is another thing ... while enjoying elation of praise for excellence (over something I deemed as peasantly effort) ... I got clobbered by boss over her misunderstanding, which grappled me with fear and shake for a few minutes, only for her to realize her folly and apologize ... all in the space of 10 minutes over the phone. Geez ... at this rate, my lifespan will decrease significantly. Yikes!
The funny thing about life is that, just when you think you are in the ultimate shit, there's bound to be another poor soul who's sunk deeper into the pit than yourself.
So, M dropped me a sms ... "Uncle, feel depressed, free for dinner?". And I thought why not (although picking someone up at an unknown location took a bit of challenge), so hopped over ... had a good chat & thrashing about these problems, which were bits of work & personal hiccups. Well, didn't exactly solve all, but I guess most people in trouble just need to bounce their thoughts off others, for a listening ear ... helping them find the road ... and probably it's as simple & noble as that.
And I do feel better after talking to people myself.
So, Saturday ... some spring cleaning, going through my old stuff ... then off for a movie marathon ... watching Romasanta (werewolf movie) and the Island. Romasanta is not as flash as the Island (which had Ewan McGregor & Scarlett Johansson) but it's probably the most realistic potrayal of a werewolf so far yet and it's very much about simply a wolf in a human mind & not the stereotyped man morphing into a beast.
The Island was thought provoking, quite real, possible and classy insight about the survival instinct in each of us. Would it be ethical if we clone a copy of ourself, but that being's purpose is to die when I need part of 'him' for myself? Should his life be in my hands? Just a thought, but at this point, all left to politicians to decide.
Yesterday was topped by dinner with old UPM friends, and it's very much chit chat about work, yesteryears, tomorrow and some drinks to health. Quite tired but satisfied after a long day.
To be honest, this week has ended in the most unexpected twists, turns and pressure, which when I look back, was quite an amazing one in fact.
Things started by clearing up my current love chase, which ended with a straight up answer of that I am not the right guy and there must have been some misunderstanding about feelings. Ah, I am thankful things are cleared up; I feel really free at this moment, not chained to an unknown & uncontrollable force (sometimes disguised as love but usually deceived as misunderstanding). Think I am more mature in facing this nowadays ... my turnarounds have been swift over the past years ... and the trick is always to turn disappointed energy towards new possibilities instead of wallowing in the pits of emotion, sadness, self-pity & over-indulgence. So, anyway ... I celebrated my 'freedom' over a rocked up car ride wracked with loud-thumping music ... just shouting my lungs out :) And treating myself to a DVD movie over the evening. Sweet.
Work is another thing ... while enjoying elation of praise for excellence (over something I deemed as peasantly effort) ... I got clobbered by boss over her misunderstanding, which grappled me with fear and shake for a few minutes, only for her to realize her folly and apologize ... all in the space of 10 minutes over the phone. Geez ... at this rate, my lifespan will decrease significantly. Yikes!
The funny thing about life is that, just when you think you are in the ultimate shit, there's bound to be another poor soul who's sunk deeper into the pit than yourself.
So, M dropped me a sms ... "Uncle, feel depressed, free for dinner?". And I thought why not (although picking someone up at an unknown location took a bit of challenge), so hopped over ... had a good chat & thrashing about these problems, which were bits of work & personal hiccups. Well, didn't exactly solve all, but I guess most people in trouble just need to bounce their thoughts off others, for a listening ear ... helping them find the road ... and probably it's as simple & noble as that.
And I do feel better after talking to people myself.
So, Saturday ... some spring cleaning, going through my old stuff ... then off for a movie marathon ... watching Romasanta (werewolf movie) and the Island. Romasanta is not as flash as the Island (which had Ewan McGregor & Scarlett Johansson) but it's probably the most realistic potrayal of a werewolf so far yet and it's very much about simply a wolf in a human mind & not the stereotyped man morphing into a beast.
The Island was thought provoking, quite real, possible and classy insight about the survival instinct in each of us. Would it be ethical if we clone a copy of ourself, but that being's purpose is to die when I need part of 'him' for myself? Should his life be in my hands? Just a thought, but at this point, all left to politicians to decide.
Yesterday was topped by dinner with old UPM friends, and it's very much chit chat about work, yesteryears, tomorrow and some drinks to health. Quite tired but satisfied after a long day.
posted by Jay @ 7.8.05
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