the wait ...

some waits are eternity, some are breeze ... we never always get what we want ...

Right after my blog yesterday, I got a SMS ... "not free tomorrow, I have plans"

So, there goes my grandiose plan to pour my heart out ... and crushed as I felt ... tried not to take this personally.

And, me being me ... just shelled out the day like any other ... giving my usual dose of managerial guidance, sarcasm and aloofness ... and a lunch with my big-sister from Korea (though it's fun to know people thought I had hots for her ... she's 33 & I am 26, but that's another story altogether). The point is, just didn't try to get this into the way (& trying to be the oh-so-professional me that I always aspire to be) ...

But as I always like to say, I am human ... I can get sad, I can get demotivated, I can get heart broken ... so, when I sent out my SMS (same message again as yesterday ... asking for dinner the next day). But when I had no reply .... I grew anxious, just trying to think why I did not get a reply ... do thoughts that ran through my head was ... did I read the signs wrongly? did I assume too much? was I taking a too big step & risk? what have I lost at this moment due to my foolhardiness?

So, I threw in my moodiest look, ignoring people ... just bringing out the beast in me (oh, I just have the look which says, "disturb me & u die"). Just wanna sink & wallow away in my sorrow ... (sigh, I gotta stop benig a real sob storyteller ... sigh)

But, on the way back. ... I got the SMS I was waiting for ... "yes, I will be free on ... "

From this moment ... I guess I should not think too much now ... just go with the flow ... whatever happens will happen ... it's a risk ... but as they say ... luck only favours the bold ...