Soul raiding ...

the universe is always in a state of yin & yang ...

Yesterday, just one of the days that started with promise & slowly faded into oblivion, but since it's Friday, I guess that's fine. Which takes me into ....

Today's thought ... about soul raiding ... and what the heck is that anyway?

I am not very sure myself ... but that is what I call the situation when the heart & mind cross the border that separates them ... which causes a lot of conflict, confusion & loss of direction in everyday life.

We all have wants in our lives (some probably irrational & maybe fantasical), but so are we guided by principles & ethics and probably logic, so we are basically talking about the heart & the mind which guide & shape the decisions & steps we take each time.

In times of conflict, there is seldom a full or agreeable solution without compromise (where compromise connotes sacrifice from both ends anyway). But as we know, logic mixed with the heart will be no longer logic (unless we take the 'science' of heart as a dimension of logic) and the heart, being guided by principles, goals and dimensions of logics cannot be fully heart because the heart was never a logical player anyway.

If I had a choice, I would spend the rest of my life waking up to sweet smell of mountain fresh air ... watching sunrise, jog along a nice jungle path & writing thoughts & travelling. But, that's a dream & like everyone else, I am just working my way up (or out actually) ...

So, here I am, putting myself into work ... putting my thinking cap on from the moment I enter office, all the way until 5:30pm (or more). But after that, I don't really care anymore ... just let go & be myself ... let go of all my work thoughts & wallow in myself ... happy, sad, angry, whatever.

What's the connection with soul raiding? (if there's any) Coming to that my dear ...

I just realized that I am fighting myself at the break of each day ... because my heart & my head tells me they want different things. If my heart could, it would rip me off what I am doing when I start to lose myself ... but as you might have guessed, my head would rather rip the heart out (actually it's the right brain since that dictates emotion, which would make head as left brain, but anyway) ... and get along with life and toil for defined success & prepare for a retired life of bliss ...

the funny thing is ... the head (sounds better than left brain) is all the while using logic to strive for a state of contentment in retirement & security ... which is all about heart ... and heart is about being happy (& sometimes selfish or ethical) ... which is for helping head balance off utilitarian dimensions ... but they are both fighting the same battle each day.

Sometimes, being knowledgeable, being experienced is not good ... it just makes us think too much ... won't it be better if life was simpler, we think less ... don't care about consequences, don't take things too personally or too deep into the heart? Won't it be easier if by not knowing more, we strive for less & (possibly) simpler aspects of life?

Would it be possible to erase the knowledge I have now to achieve that? or should it be that I simplify my wants & aim for the simpler & finer aspects of life?

And maybe it's just as simple as that.

Jay, the lost boy :)