going on the fast track ...

being an achiever, I have always wanted to be the best in many things, especially in work ... and except for my lapse in motivation & energy ...

so recently, I received attention about my work and the promotion & plan by company for me is indeed tremendous; if I do well .. a lot of new challenges await me ... a lot of opportunities.

And now, having reached a level of performance & recognition I always wanted, I suddenly felt strange & do not fit in ... it's too weird after being in several companies which I was good but not rising to higher roles within my time there or being in places where my contract were only for a year. Maybe the skills picked up from so many places and in multiple perspectives was enriching, but what is hurting me (a little) is about accepting recognition & promotion ... maybe also the mindset of staying longer than a year in a company, something which I have nto done before.

been trying to find my footing & strength to take upon the challenge from friends & it's quite good to feel accepted (at least professionally) by my new team.

(to be continued ...)